wishlist
WISHLIST!
Child Psychology Course
A Camera
Laptop
Adidas merchandise
Converse shoes
Outfitter girl dress
a NEW love =)
More events!!!
More time with my kids!!! =)
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quotes
"there is nothing left in your right brain, and nothing right in your left brain" believe me, its true

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random
there is a saying"experience is a tough teacher. it gives the test before it teaches its lesson". this is my experiece, my test, my learnings and my observations. read it, and learn from it if you must, but never criticise it

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i wanna shut my eyes so tight

and open my mouth so wide

and SCREAM...

Rahhhhhhhhhhh

i dunno if its me or the people around me but i have been feeling so damn vexed for the past week. I dont lunch tgt with the people i used to anymore. I rather be alone doing my own damn things and this is not good. But no one actually notice, bothers or cares. And i am so guilty of venting my anger on someone else. Blah. i am fucking pissed. What the hell is wrong. Good heavens. Is it me being moody or is it really no one cares anymore till the stage that i dont bother anymore. Everyone is so clique-ish and there is always no room for me. i dont really care about attention or whatever shit but my presence is getting more and more non-existent. Guess all efforts to pull everyone tgt has gone down the drain and everyone doesnt need me anymore now that they have found their own besties. Above all everyone is damn fake now. i really cant trust anyone anymore now. i shall just have to keep mum and swallow everything. at least i wont get hurt in the course of work. it also can get pissing when people are free loaders and get protected just because she is pretty/rich /cute wat ever the fuck it is. seriously i have been doing the whole freaking thing myself and i dont even make a noise. just when i bloody didnt come for one session and u did that session doesnt mean i am not doing anything. the number of stuff i have done is countless as compared to the couple of pieces u did. fuck. fuck my life.

i want to go out. i want to the people i love. i want to have Hi!Club everyday. i want a boyfriend/girlfriend. i fucking want some peace. it sucks to be sad everyday and gracia doesnt like to be sad. Eat shit and die to all those bloody people around me.

-screw my life-