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Wednesday, July 8, 2009 love my life =)  this is the hi club main comm 2009. from left: Lina, Izzati, Kenn, me, Sean, Naiimah, Kenneth absent: ezekiel, hani these people make school the best place on earth. i Love Lina for her smses and encouragments. i Love Izzati for being really cute and cheerful. i Love Kenn for being really fun and entertaining. i Love Sean for being a really nice guy. i Love Naiimah for being my soulmate. Nothing can match up to you. i Love Kenneth for being so gentlemanly and funny. i Love Ezekiel for being such a nice partner and does everything my way. i Love Hanni for being really cheerful and happy all the time. not forgetting i Love WAYNE who has been a damn great instructor. Its makes life much easier for me =) as much as the going gets tough, the tough gets going. as much as i am emoing, i am happy. different people really makes you express differently. i wish i could express myself to everyone else like how i do to my dearest Hi! Club besties. these people are not only my committe members but they are dear friends to me-almost like a family. At least when everything else is in darkness, this little light of Hi! Club is shining =) -let the sun illuminate what cannot be found- Tuesday, July 7, 2009  i wanna shut my eyes so tight and open my mouth so wide and SCREAM... Rahhhhhhhhhhh i dunno if its me or the people around me but i have been feeling so damn vexed for the past week. I dont lunch tgt with the people i used to anymore. I rather be alone doing my own damn things and this is not good. But no one actually notice, bothers or cares. And i am so guilty of venting my anger on someone else. Blah. i am fucking pissed. What the hell is wrong. Good heavens. Is it me being moody or is it really no one cares anymore till the stage that i dont bother anymore. Everyone is so clique-ish and there is always no room for me. i dont really care about attention or whatever shit but my presence is getting more and more non-existent. Guess all efforts to pull everyone tgt has gone down the drain and everyone doesnt need me anymore now that they have found their own besties. Above all everyone is damn fake now. i really cant trust anyone anymore now. i shall just have to keep mum and swallow everything. at least i wont get hurt in the course of work. it also can get pissing when people are free loaders and get protected just because she is pretty/rich /cute wat ever the fuck it is. seriously i have been doing the whole freaking thing myself and i dont even make a noise. just when i bloody didnt come for one session and u did that session doesnt mean i am not doing anything. the number of stuff i have done is countless as compared to the couple of pieces u did. fuck. fuck my life. i want to go out. i want to the people i love. i want to have Hi!Club everyday. i want a boyfriend/girlfriend. i fucking want some peace. it sucks to be sad everyday and gracia doesnt like to be sad. Eat shit and die to all those bloody people around me. -screw my life- |