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just so you know,
this feeling's
takin' control of me, and i can't help it.
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Thursday, April 1, 2010 it's all my fault  i cant smile like in this picture anymore. Why is it that all i do is to make baby worried and upset about me. i cant even make baby feel secure that i will always be by his side. What the fuck is wrong with me. Just as i am insecure, he must feel much more worst. All i do is cry and make baby guilty. I am really bad at all this shit. sometimes i wonder why i am given such a good boyfriend when i am just a nobody. there is definetly someone out there that loves baby more but he still choose me. i dont know if i deserve all this. baby is giving his best yet i am still being a spoilt princess. Really pissed with myself for being the barrier between us. Why cant i just listen to him. Everything baby does is for my own good yet i still disagree with him. Even if i dont disagree, my expression tells the world that i am unhappy. Why is it so hard to take in baby's advice. Why do i still want things my way when i know i am in the wrong? Why do i have to be so stubborn? Why am i not someone else who is nicer? Why? Why?Why? -tell me why- |